At first, I was thrilled! Only one more month of my B.A. studies? Wooohoo!
And today I find myself back where I was before. Not that I can't see the finish line any more. My friend's point made me look up and see that (no more head-down anymore!). But in light of my impending graduation, I find myself worrying even more.
I am having a very hard time believing that my plan for the next few years may not be God's plan for my next few years.
I want to get into JET.
Maybe God doesn't have that in store for me.
I want to become a teacher.
Maybe God doesn't have that in store for me.
I want to live in New Zealand (still).
Maybe God doesn't have that in store for me.
The list is longer, but I am just barely clinging to the promises God has given me. And yet, I just reminded another friend (not the one above) that the plans God has for us, although they may not be our plans, these plans give us HOPE and a FUTURE. And right now, that is what I am holding onto.
Whatever plans God has for you, it's likely that you'll be happy with them. God knows the desires of our heart. What we get might not always be exactly what we wanted, but if it's from God it can't be that bad right??
ReplyDeleteI was totally in that place last year! So many unknowns, but God is always there and totally knows what's best to you. I had a struggle, that is I wasn't able to go to Africa, was it something I wanted so bad that if God didn't give that to me, would it affect my relationship with him negatively, and I did want it so badly that it scared me. Whatever God has in mind for you will always be what is best, and draws you closer to Him. That's a long comment, but I know what it feels like to have things planned and desired, and wondering what happens if they don't happen.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Jacqui Amy:D It is definitely a terrifying though, the whole "Im done university and Ive got my whole life ahead of me so now what?" I graduated not too long ago and I have so many hopes and dreams and a million things I want to achieve and see and the fact that some of those things may not be what God has planned for me is very challenging to accept...but if there's one thing I've learned these past years is that God's timing is perfect...it may not happen now or in a couple of years but when it does, you will see its purpose and why exactly He meant it to happen at that time. On top of that, Ive had things that Ive asked and wished for that didn't happen, and even though ir hurted me at first, eventually I saw it through His eyes and the reasons why it wasn't in His plans for me. It's all in faith, and it's part of working in our relationship with Him :D Take care and God bless!
ReplyDeleteGod does have a plan for you Yosh, and he does give us hope for the future. It's a challenging transition to make from student to career women...as you read in my blog I am faced with the same decisions at the moment. God has a plan, and it's going to filled with great experiences. Trust in God, I know somtimes this is hard, but trust that God knows where you are to go and he will reveal this to you. The advice you gave me was a great one and I think it applies to you too...pray...even these few years of being a christian i have seen how powerful the power of prayer can be. I will def. be praying for you my wonderful friend.
ReplyDeleteI also wanted to say that your comment you gave me on my blog made me smile and made me feel a lot better. Thank you for your advice.
hey Amy! one thing that has helped me as i make decisions is knowing that God is sovereign and that I can't thwart his overall plan for my life. and also knowing that He's completely trustworthy. don't worry; He knows your heart and He also knows what's best. :)
ReplyDeleteHi Amy,
ReplyDeleteI am so blessed to have you in my life and I know that God has Good plans for you. I believe it and am praying for you. I appreciate all that you bring to our friendship. :-) Smile...HE loves you.